8.29.22 // An Act of Rebellion

An act of rebellion.
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A friend recently sent me this quote... "in a capitalist society rest is an act of rebellion."
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Over the last few years, I've talked extensively about my struggle to slow down. The first time I brought it up, it was coming out of an intense work environment in Silicon Valley, then I talked about it with the forced slow down of COVID, then I spoke about it when I moved to Europe. Each chapter slowing down felt easier but never *easy.*
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It wasn't until the final few months of Europe in Chamonix, France that I felt slow and methodical and content in my just being, in my existence, in my resting state.
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Then I came back to North America... I wrote about this right when I got back, but I felt immense pressure to return to a "normal" job. There wasn't a comment or a person who made me feel like this. Still, collectively the priorities and "understanding" of existence here are progress motivated, are often financially focused, and simplified to an expectation of contribution in terms of your time towards growth.
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"Growth" not limited to my career, but also in my hobbies, my sports, my free time, my friendships, ME.
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It felt like the great work I had been doing had unraveled because I stepped back into a culture with priorities different from my own.
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But I'm not looking to run away. I'm not looking to change my external world. I'm done doing that...
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Instead, I'm ready to become a rebel.