2.2.20 // Anger.

Anger.
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In the spectrum of emotions, this is one emotion that I don't feel often.. or rather I don't let myself feel.
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As a chronic people-pleaser, anger (in my mind) signifies that I need to change my perspective. It signifies that I'm somehow in the wrong. It signifies that I'm weak. It signified that I'm a "hate-filled" person.
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But, I'm coming to realize that as part of the human experience, anger is just as important of as emotion as some of our other ones and suppressing anger is actually extremely detrimental to my own mental health. And ya know what, I'm allowed to be fucking angry.
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I'm allowed to be angry and feel frustrated. I'm allowed to feel a fire burning inside, to stand next to it and be fueled by its warmth. To let it fill every inch of my body and use that energy to explode in the universe with the force of a supernova.
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While there is a fine line to walk for embodying anger and feeling anger, it's important to remember feelings are just feelings, they aren't who I am.
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And I'm finally recognizing that anger can be extremely powerful when used for good and I'm ready to lean into that.