3.2.21 // feel the change coming

I can feel the change coming.
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Like the roll of the ocean, it's constant, powerful, insistent.
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It's never felt like this before.
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In previous times, I've felt change like a river. Gliding in it with smoothness and grace, occasionally holding on to rocks in resistance, but eventually letting myself fall into the soft, sweet current.
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I realize now that the river was in fact just leading me into the sea.
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It was preparing me for the ocean with its endless borders and tumultuous times.
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In the ocean, there is nothing to grab onto in resistance, You are simply in it. You are in the change.
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Survival falls directly on your own shoulders, your own capabilities to navigate the salty waters that surround you.
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There will be days when the water is choppy, full of pain and anger. But the sunny days are nothing short of bliss.
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The ocean after all is also entitled to a full spectrum of emotion too, it's just a matter of how you understand her. Do you try to own the feelings or do you roll with the ocean, feel her every emotion, feel her perfect drops of water, and see each day a beautiful opportunity to understand her better?
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Change has never felt as frightening as this journey out in the ocean, but by god, she has never felt as invigorating and exciting as this either.
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So in this, I let myself go, out to sea.