7.21.22 // I Don't Want Solutions

I don't want solutions.
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I want deep compassion.
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I don't want to be heard.
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I want to be understood.
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I don't want assumptions.
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I want curiosity and communication.
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I don't want to "should."
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I want to want and I need to know and that doesn't make me "too much."
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I don't want my strengths pegged as weaknesses because they upset you or challenge the power of the systems that have failed me.
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I want every part of me, my strengths and my weaknesses, to be celebrated, not fixed, not pushed towards "growth" or "progress," not looped around my neck like my own being is my own demise.
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Because after all, I don't want a solution.
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I just want to want.
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I just need to need.
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So I can just be.