7.1.22 // I Hurt Someone

I hurt someone by not listening to my intuition...
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Over the last several months, I've written a lot about listening to my intuition and learning how to hear her again.
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After years of silencing my intuition for the people-pleasing and palatable expectations of who I thought I "should" be, I'd been making small strides towards hearing my intuition and taking action. But old habits take time to break...
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And most of those writings had to do with my own existence and my own learnings- opportunities I held myself back from, mean comments I didn't speak up against, and not trusting myself or my body to know what is best for me.
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But a couple of weeks ago, I let my intuition go mostly ignored and that impacted someone else's storyline...
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The details aren't relevant, but the through-line needs to be shared...
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This is the first time something like this has ever BLATANTLY happened and it left me wondering if this type of thing has happened before and I was just unaware of my choices or rather the impact of them.
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Choosing my intuition over my intellect (while still valuing and loving my intellect for wanting to keep me safe and help me survive) no longer feels like a simple choice with no ramifications.
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It feels critical that I learn to hear my intuitive voice and heed her words and her feelings.
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Not because I want to please people or heroically save anyone, I realize that there will be people hurt by my choices, but because I refuse to hurt people because of my own distrust of myself and my inner knowing.