3.18.20 // This is Me.

This is me.
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This is me in quarantine, a Petri dish for insecurities, fears, and anxieties.
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It can be overwhelming.
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The swirl of emotions around the news & uncertainty for the next several weeks is enough to trigger any of us. No matter if you’re an empath, anxious by nature, an introvert, an extrovert, endlessly optimistic, or an end of world planner.
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Let me explain a bit about where I’m at?
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Right as CoVid-19 was hitting the states, my dad was wrapping up recovery from heart surgery in a Knoxville hospital. @thetravellingtaylor & I watched the news closely.
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After spending a couple of weeks with my dad & stepmom we were planning on heading to Peru than to Europe for various work, races, & adventures.
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Over the course of days, we watched as those plans faded into distant daydreams. We needed to pivot but to what?
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Taylor and I both gave up our homes in favor of a robust travel schedule through the end of December. Him crashing on couches during his time in SF & me spending time in the south with family when I was in the states.
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However, instead of planning travel we are trying to plan a reality where we do not risk our family or friend’s health. It’s not a complaint, not a rant, but a reality.
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And that reality is scary. As an already anxious person whose coping mechanism is running away and freedom through long drives, quarantine is something out of a nightmare. And to think I could be putting my highly susceptible family at risk is horrifying.
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So if you're overwhelmed. I feel you and I tell this story so you know you’re not alone. But, we have to remember that this is so much bigger than ourselves.
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We have to be there for each other. I’m deeply grateful for Taylor for letting me be snappy, anxious, tearful as I feel a spectrum of emotions around the last few weeks and the next few to come.
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If you don’t have anyone in your direct vicinity, this is a beautiful moment for social media to bring people together... please don’t go out for drinks or dinner or anywhere that is blatantly negligent.
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And I for one am here for you. Send me a message and I will respond if you need someone.
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Quarantine friends are always welcome in my virtual home.