2.25.20 // This is Me.

This is me.
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Something I struggle with while traveling... exercise.
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It’s something I desperately need both for my physical and my mental health.
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On days I don’t exercise I’m irritable, accidentally indulgent, and my confidence plummets.
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But, I’m trying to get more flexible (no pun intended) and creative when it comes to getting exercise in.
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I want to say it’s been easy for me, but it’s not. I want to be honest, I deeply struggle with food and exercise in an almost compulsive way. So, being on the road is challenging.
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I’ve always told myself I should do a certain amount of exercise... 5-mile runs, 7-mile walks, 60-minute biking, a SoulCycle class, etc...
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But what I’ve learned so far is that you squeeze it in when you can. Then you make it fun and release the guilt or shame around it. 30-minute jog up and down a backroad, 6 miles of sketchy running next to a Dubai highway, ab exercises in a hotel...
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With travel and this shift of normal life, I'm also trying to release my expectations and iron fist around my body. Letting myself eat the local indulgent cuisines and celebrating at a wedding or with family without immense guilt.
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Instead, I'm trying to remember that bodies shift and gaining and losing weight is part of being a human.
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And after all, that is exactly what I am, just a human trying my best. And even sometimes not doing that, and that's ok too.