4.5.21 // feeling myself

I haven't been feeling myself lately...
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I've been feeling off, struggling with lower back pain, spending more time inside than out, and lacking space for inspiration, excitement, and confidence.
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But this photo is one where I was truly feeling myself.
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I can remember this moment so clearly, I had put on my new ARQ set and I felt beautiful. No makeup, bright eyes, and the world felt brilliant.
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I had just come back from Mexico where I reconnected with Taylor and we rehashed our life, I had just walked away from a job that was no longer a positive and supportive place, and for the first time in a long time, I was in flow with the universe.
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And by god, when you're in flow with the universe, life unfolds like the opening of a flower on a spring morning, she dances in majestic time with the sun sharing her color and intoxicating scent with the world with each petal pressing open.
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I'm looking forward to finding my way back into that dance. I'm looking forward to finding my way back with the understanding that life, love, and confidence sometimes flows but not without that beautiful balance of an ebb.
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If you're feeling an ebb this week, you're not alone. Remember the flowing moments but hold them without guilt or shame that your current moment isn't as beautiful or light because before you know it you'll be back dancing with the sun on these beautiful spring mornings.