11.24.20 // this time last year

This time last year.
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This time last year, at almost this precise moment, I was in Garmish-Patenkirchen, Germany.
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Garmish is a truly beautiful town. It is nestled in the mountains of Bavaria in Southern Germany. The town was pristine, a stark contrast to my mind which at the time was coated in fear and anger. I was there for a weekend trip after I had *very* impulsively moved to Germany full-time.
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I gave up my housing, my silicon-valley job, and my California community to move there. This is where I thought my life was meant to go, this was my calling.
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Germany was not it. And yet it was...
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My time in Germany ended up being an absolutely terrible situation. But, I wouldn't have changed even one moment of that experience, because, it led me to exactly where I am today.
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This time last year, I felt like my world was unraveling. What the *fuck* was I doing and more importantly, what was I going to?
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I remember talking to my network of people, explaining to them the situation. It was one of my worst nightmares, having to explain to people that I had messed up. And I didn't just mess up, in my mind, I had royally fucked up.
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But those people listened with love, offered an ear to listen and advice to move forward. It was a dark period for me, but as I talked to people and told them my vulnerable truths, they held candles for me to see through the darkness.
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This time last year, I was standing in a beautiful mountain town in another country, feeling torn and confused. Thinking to myself, "I thought this was it?"
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This year, I am standing in a beautiful mountain town in another country, feeling love and fulfillment. Thinking to myself, "this is it".
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The universe doesn't always show its hand but follow your heart, your truth, and candles when you can only see darkness.