8.2.22 // Paradox

Sunshine and rain.
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Light and dark.
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Nature, Emotions, Beings- balanced by two sides of the same coin.
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Paradoxes- each part dependent on the other.
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I've finally started to see the endless paradoxes that balance the world.
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I've finally started to understand the depth to which paradoxes exist and how I can see them and learn from them instead of finding them "fateful."
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Some paradoxes you can't control, like the weather.
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But some, you can see the darkness and the light, and make choices around seeing the deep opposition of two options.
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For example, jealousy. When I'm jealous, I welcome that feeling because jealousy shows me where I want to go and sometimes traits of who I truly am and want to be. I no longer see jealousy popping up and react by stuffing it down, instead I invite it forward and approach with curiosity... What is my innermost self trying to tell me? What part of me has been repressed? What part of me am I seeing in someone else's actions that is leading to this feeling of jealousy?
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Paradox.
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Jealousy- written as a sin ​in ​one of the world’s most popularized books... in my opinion, is a healthy dose of truth telling serum. A way for the unconscious to speak to the conscious. It is a choice. It is not fate, it is knowing.
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My mind is shifting. I can feel it. The paradoxes are becoming more clear.
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And I know I'm just at the tip of the iceberg, starting to understand and comprehend the vastness of my own "knowing" and seeing the world for the beauty in the way it is balanced...