11.18.20 // this is me

This is me.
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To be human is to feel the ups and downs of life.
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I could write only about the ups, but the downs are so important to who I am...
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I've felt on edge, my inner turmoil burning away. I can feel a shift coming, the once stagnant energy feels confined, feels on the edge, feels like it's bursting at the seams.
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I know change is the only constant in life.
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But I have days where the impending change sends shivers down my spine. The unknown lingering in the shadows, waiting for me to close my eyes, waiting for me to take a breath, waiting for me to move.
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I want to find comfort in the unknown, but my human need to control has been deeply ingrained, it's unwinding a coil that's been wound for too many years, it's thawing an iceberg of monumental proportions.
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But, I want to find solace in the unknown, to pull the shadow out of the dark corners and into the light so I can befriend them, I want to uncoil, I want to melt.
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I want to be fearless, ready to jump at any moment.
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I'm ready to be fearless, ready to jump at any moment.
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I am fearless, ready to jump at any moment.