11.23.22 // I Failed

I failed.
.
And now that I've had a few weeks to process the failure, I'm ready to admit it more openly.
.
Failure is a part of life, but with how perfect social media makes everyone and everything seem, I want to offer up this reminder that failure is not only inevitable but expected.
.
Before I address the "what," I also want to note that failure isn't "wrong" or "bad." It's also not "right" or "good," it just is. Failure can be used to understand yourself, test your abilities, or even show up as an opportunity to reroute your perspectives and expectations.
.
So, my failure... I failed to host the trip to Patagonia, Argentina that I've been talking about for over a year.
.
That's right, the trip isn't happening. I still receive a couple of DMs every week asking about it, but it's time for me to own that it is not happening.
.
It was a huge jump for me to launch the trip. I spent weeks thinking about the trip, pushing through my insecurities, and trying to figure out if something like this was desirable for my online community, let alone something I desired.
.
But I went for it. Scared out of my mind that it wouldn't work out.
.
When I pulled the trigger and launched the trip, I had enough sign-ups to confirm the trip within the first couple of weeks. However, with over a year between the launch and the trip itself, life happened. Slowly I started to receive cancellations, and emails with explanations on why certain participants could no longer attend. The group I had put together started to crumble and I dropped under the number of required travelers for the trip to be viable without it costing me a huge cover fee.
.
I pushed for more participants- DM's, emails, phone calls- I pulled all the levers for people who were interested, but the hesitation to commit to a big international trip kept people from confirming (which is understandable, it was a huge commitment). And in the end, it just didn't work out... It just didn't. I failed.
.
I failed, but out of this Patagonia trip failure has come some incredible ideas and some tangible news... that I'm excited to announce soon... so here's hoping that success can ride on the coattails of this failure!